Swimming through the universe, one light-year at a time.

Swimming through the universe, one light-year at a time.
NCG 4631 "The Whale Galaxy"

Tuesday, April 03, 2007


Glad to understand that you never saw much in me i remember being terrified of what you would think knowing my looks were lacking and my personality insufficient but what really mattered was not my overall disposition but just a human presence you wanted to fill in the missing segments she took with her when she left and the trauma you suffered last summer i don't blame you i feel for you i can't compare to but i must admit i felt dead before i met you i liked it because you were a blow to my pride i let it down for yours and now i'm paying the price even as i watched all this happen i was aware of a painful recurrence i nurtured another developing ache now it's swollen it's just the same old still i wonder if you ever thought of her when you were with me when you lay with me and touched my skin yours was icy cold it stung my lips it doesn't matter i created meaning to something which didn't exist i'm glad i was good enough for the moment just a substance to make you forget or act as another ephemeral high i hope what you said wasn't a lie that you really liked me not just to stroke my broken ego or an attempt for atonement i think the move was a smart one to protect your heart from those who would destroy it i hope you heal from your hurt and the damage she's done i understand you deserved someone after her defective love glad i could be of assistance grateful for what heartsickness you added to my experience and finally glad you let me go before i could show resistance.

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